>>3151 (OP)
It's hard for me to say if what I had or felt was love. In middle school, I asked a girl I was friends with to be my valentine for reasons that amount to "just because I could." Still, I was elated when she said yes. We talked on the phone and played games together. Then, we went on a single date at a school function, and things went sour. She bored me by sitting in place for the whole thing, and it was a double date, so I took the other girl's date and had a good time. When we finally did do something together, her friends didn't include me, which made me upset. For a variety of reasons, I just didn't know how to behave in a relationship, and this was the breaking point. We broke up shortly after it ended. Still, I don't think she dated anyone after me. We had a short stint where we talked and sort of confided in each other in high school. At the end of high school, I tried to stay in touch with her, but she told me that the feelings that were there when we met just didn't seem like they were there anymore. I understood and didn't try to fight it. Her last text to me was "You always did," which is clearly in reference to me understanding. That line still eats at me.
I don't really know if I'd call what was there "love." I had never really had a best friend before, just a line of people who I one-sidedly attached the title of "best friend" to. The only propositional relationships tha